Well, I'm a human male with access to the internet.
The air smells of fire. It’s ironic, really. You would never think that the world would end so stereotypically. A red sky sets the backdrop for a desert of scorched earth. I’m wandering without a destination, though what more of a purpose other than living does one have in these times? There was a road I used to follow; I regret that now. It was one of those cleverly disguised paths that leads to nowhere. Then again, Nowhere is where I’m going. There just isn’t much left in this wasteland.
This journey has been difficult, to say the least. It started months ago. The signs of the end were all there. Of course, I didn’t see them, but others did. They were ready. I constantly ask myself, would it have been better if I had known? Could I have been more prepared? Had I known, would I have even let it happen? I believe that it is best to have lived in ignorance. We never do want to know how the world ends.
A while back, I stumbled. The world was on the brink of chaos but the inevitable was pushed away by my pain. Things would have gone so much differently had I not fallen. I would have had to face the end much earlier. I guess I would have been stronger but I was still drastically unprepared.
A stranger came to help me in my journey. Good intentions and strong will was all that I could see. I didn’t let the stranger into my struggles at first, though. I didn’t know that I would want to, but after the end I needed the help. Surprisingly, we made a good team. We ventured throughout the wasteland and overcame every obstacle we came across. That is, until we met with Judgment.
Life is so incredibly relative to who you are. To you, life may be the conscious actions and day-to-day occurrences with which you partake in. To others, it may be the simple process of particles reacting to each other in predicable and quantifiable ways. And me? I believe that life cannot be explained. You have to experience it. Whether or not it treats you well, whether it gives or takes away, whether it bounds or frees you, life is precious. Living in the past does nothing for us. I barely remember the world as it used to be. Do not, however, live entirely in the future. The future is solely built on wishes and dreams; it changes every second of every day. This is the present; this is now. I live with what I have, not with what I lack. In several months time from now, things may change. The world may correct itself, it may start anew, I could reunite with that kind stranger, or meet an entirely new one. My lost friends and family may be reconnected. My home may return. Whatever happens, it is not for me to determine. There is a higher authority than Man.
And so I will keep on wandering. A never ceasing journey to find the New Zion.
“My friend is dead, my neighbour is dead, my love, the darling of my soul, is dead.”
”It is a far, far better thing that I do, than I have ever done; it is a far, far better rest that I go to than I have ever known.”
-A Tale of Two Cities
[I realize the morbidity of this and honestly I wasn’t going for such a dark mood but in the end I think it fits the theme well.]
